for william

sometimes i think i think too much.

so it helps to write. i was always intrigued by words. definitions. metaphors. anything that could help me get the emotions that ran through my head onto a page. i filled notebooks up with words. definitions. feelings. because a feeling is not real until it has a name. when it has a name it isn’t so scary. its just a word. when i can write down my thoughts they stop spinning through my head and take quiet shelter on the pages. not gone, but at rest.

i love you more than anything. you’re the person i go to sleep and wake up thinking about. the person i dream about all through the night. the face i look for in a crowded room. I wanted to create a place to share all these words somewhere, all my feelings about you all in one place, and everything i never said out loud.